baby, i fucking love you.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

i saw this line on clara' blog.

when you feel like giving up on something,
remember why you held on for so long.

this phrase kinda flashed through my mind.
&i had a random thought,
MMMmmm.

my horoscope tells me today that;

Some of your inner thoughts are leaking out into your actions right now, and you're probably not realizing it. Your unconscious body language is sending a definite message to the world
-- and it could be misread unless
you make an effort to clarify your stance on an issue.
Take a close look at what you're doing and whom you're avoiding,
and you'll soon see how you can prevent anyone
from getting the wrong idea about you.
Face up to what you've been putting off.

i find it very hard to get back my focus
or purpose in life,after i lost it.
maybe i needa do some soul searching.
&alot of thinking.

why does everyone care about looks?
i admit, i care alot about the way i look,
the way i act, the way i go about doing things.
And sometimes i wished i didnt care so much.

But its hard not to care,
when everyone's out there, judging you.
Why do i always let what other people's judgement affect me?
But im sure i'm not the only one.

Some people get jealous of others because of their appearance.
Tell me honestly, have you ever been jealous of someone else,
because of their looks?Well, i have.
But then i realised, even though you got a pretty face,
but your personality stinks,
who's gonna like you?
having a pretty face isnt all that,
what matters most is on the inside.
your soul.

Im scared of the unknown dangers,
Im afraid to face up to reality,
Im terrified to see what i've become,
Im ashamed to know who've become.

Right now,
I've no idea what Im going to do after secondary school.
No idea whether i'd go to JC or a poly,
&no idea whether i'd even do well enough to get into JC/poly.
I've got no more PROPER dreams & ambitions.
Even though i said before that i want to be an air stewardess,
and thn retire and become a tai tai,
but honestly, who am i trying to kid.
Many women wish to become a taitai.
so that they can led their lives without worrying
about whether their work was up to standard,
worrying about money issues,
can their paycheck last them through the month?
They'd rather worry about which nail polish they havent tried on yet,
and whether it'd look nice.
Honestly, who wouldnt want to lead a life of luxury.
But exactly how many women get to be the envy of others.
Hardly many.

oh gosh,
there's school tomorrow,
&i've chinese tuition later at 4pm.
ITS THAT HOLIDAYS, gwad.
im sucha loser.

MOOO,
im a turtle.
turtles go moo,
in denis' little world of make believe.
(;

im through waiting on you to make up your mind,
im gna walk away
<3

8:57 AM