baby, i fucking love you.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

i've a fetish.
its to smell people.

I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever

But nailed to the tree where we were
Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

I read those words just hours before
My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church
When me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry
All my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

Between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

oh gosh
this song is damn sweet.
and sucha oldie.
but it's really niceee(:

no matter how hard i try
i know i'll never be yours.

i guess its time i should give up.
stop running this race that never seems to end.
i'll never be number one in yer heart.
i know.

and i hope yer know how thankful i am
to know that yer are willing to give me a chance.
but i know it's never gonna work out.
so whats the point in beginning in the first place.
only one person will get hurt
and that person is me.
and i'm willing to be hurt now.
then to be even more hurt later.

but one thing yer should know.
yer will always have a place in mah heart.

right now.
i'm goin to learn to live life to the fullest.
try and knock some senses into mah head someone, please.
right now all i can think about is you,
mah beloved.the idiotic one.
and i dont know why.
but i miss yer so.
so much, i wanna cry.

<3

8:15 PM